The Healing Matrix
You cannot heal through your thinking. The healing matrix runs much deeper than that. The healing matrix is the synthesis of mind, body, and feelings. Healing that does not include the body, is not healing at the matrix level. To heal at the matrix level means to get to the root causation of all forms of ailments. Which is of course, where the root of all of our dreams and aspirations live too.
Healing must happen through the body because the body is the storehouse of every thought and feeling we’ve ever had. This body is a storehouse for those patterns that live on through our genetic line. The family we are born into, we carry the threads of our ancestors through our blood and bones. To heal that for which inflicted our lineage, we must access the healing matrix through the body.
The body is the densest form of manifestation. In it contains everything that ever was. We must go down into the depths of our being, like a seed does as it grows down before growing up to reach the light. Practices solely centered on meditation and positive affirmation that disregard the feelings of the body are not accessing the healing matrix. We must dip down into the earth, far down into the depths of discomfort, into the depths of pain and avoidance, into everything that feels off and out of place and give it a home, give it a name. We must face everything we feel with the kind of love one would give a child. For these parts of ourselves we are speaking, they developed before the age of 7. We are, in essence, reparenting ourselves with the kind of love and nurturance that we may have not have received as a child. The kind of love and nurturance that may only exist in our yearning and in our forgotten memories. For in all of us, there does live a Mother, the Universal Mother, and her Love is healing. Love is healing, healing is love, there is no separating the two. For this love is whole, holistic, substantially containing and yet spacious. The kind of love like floating in a vat of honey, held as a spider sits center her web.
Our body is amazing because it houses our thoughts and our feelings. It houses our memories and evolutionary patterns. It houses everything that ever was, even those impressions that are not human in form. Because we all have evolved from other forms. Animals, plants, rocks, elements, stardust. We think we must leave this body to feel safe, to ascend home, to walk the path of enlightenment. Quite opposing, actually. We are here to polarize opposites and bring duality into a synthesis that reveals a higher level of consciousness. Consciousness that is inclusive, all-pervading, healing, soulful, love. Consciousness is Love and Love is Consciousness. The matrix of healing is pure consciousness. Awakening consciousness is awakening through the felt sensations of the body. Learning the language of the body. Because there is no way to reach the mountain top without first descending into the caves.
To reach our highest levels of aspiration, we must meet the healing matrix. For also, the healing matrix is the birthplace of creativity. It is where we go to build the blueprints for the kind of life we dream of building. We cannot build it from those forms that exist before our eyes. We cannot create new life from a life currently in existence. As nature does and her cycles, we must die an esoteric death. Meaning we keep our body and we die to the identity of a way of living out serving its usefulness. For to reach the life in our dreams we must die to, well, everything. We must go into the body which is essentially traversing the past and clean out those patterns that are birthing still from the healing matrix. If we are ready to go in a new direction, we must access the healing matrix through the body, uproot those existing threads and like the caterpillar, wait in the alchemical process before becoming the butterfly. This is why we must feel it to heal it, learning and respecting the inherent cycles of Natural Order.
Compulsive and impulsive urges must give way to long-term visioning. The fire that burns for the awakening of a new form, a new way of living is the fire that burns away the old in favor of the new. We must get comfortable with burning in the fire, suffocating in the earth, and drowning in the water,. For these represent stages of initiation in which more and more of the healing matrix is revealed and accessible to us. More and more creative potency is available to create those forms that radiate an all-inclusive, healing magnetism.
Dying to fire, we purify our thoughts and receive vision; dying to earth, death of our personality which gives way to liberation; and dying to water we surrender all control and merge as one with Creator. Creator here can also be seen as complete absorption into the energy of the healing matrix. Embodying pure consciousness, pure creativity. Radiating and magnetizing healing in all directions, and all dimensions of time and space. With access such as this, human potential is actualized and the self is completely utilized to being a servant for the outworking of The Great Plan that supersedes and underscores our individual as well as cosmic evolutionary process.
I write these words through the passionate outpouring of love that courses my heart and veins. Feeling deep compassion for a dear sister walking the path of healing, experimenting with modalities that anchor more of the masculine potency. A non-embodied approach to healing is not healing, it’s visioning. And as I have learned through nearly a decade of my own experimenting, healing is feminine, it must include the body to reach the heights my visions seek to take me. Again, the mountaintop cannot be reached before descending the caves. The past must be brought into alignment with the present before the future can be made different. The past is this body, these physical forms that house our thoughts, emotions, and divine yearnings. Clean up those patterns still being created from the healing matrix so that new blueprints can be written in its place. This work cannot be ignored nor overridden. Begin today to heal yesterday so that tomorrow can begin anew.
